From Sleepless Nights to Oneness: Remembering Wholeness in the Mess of Daily Life

Last night was one of those nights. Both kids were up several times, and by morning my body felt wrung out. Instead of muscling through, I gave myself 30 minutes for a Yoga Nidra practice I had recorded during a recent teacher training weekend.

As I was guided through the five koshas—the layers from the physical body inward to the place of oneness—I felt myself merge with all that is. For a little while, I wasn’t “mom” or "wife" or “business owner.”

I wasn’t even tired.

I was spacious, connected--not separate.

And then I opened my eyes.

Suddenly, separation was back: the toys scattered across the floor, the pile of laundry, the mental tug-of-war between cleaning the house or working on my business. My roles came rushing back in—mom in charge of kids, entrepreneur hustling to trade my services for resources. That sense of oneness felt like it evaporated.
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But here’s the thing I keep reminding myself: the koshas don’t disappear when I roll up the mat. The same wholeness is still here—even when I’m folding laundry, running ads, or trying to decide what’s more important today, marketing the book or cleaning out the junk drawer.

The Reframe

​Instead of grasping at how to keep that Yoga Nidra feeling, the real practice is remembering it in the middle of daily life. The question isn’t, “How do I hold onto this state?” It’s, “How can I recall this oneness in the middle of dishes, emails, and sibling squabbles?”

​When Roles Pull Us Apart

It’s easy to believe the separation: that parenting isolates us, that entrepreneurship is a hustle, that clutter is proof of failure. But these are just roles and stories. Beneath them, the same oneness hums.

What helps me is pausing to ask:

• Which action will help me feel most present—tackling the clutter or riding the wave of creativity?
• Am I acting from separation (scarcity, desperation) or from wholeness (service, offering)?

​From Forcing to Offering

My business coach recently reminded me (as my ego was moaning about having to learn how to run ads on Amazon) the purpose of my book isn’t to make a fortune—it’s an anchor for the rest of my work as a training facilitator and speaker. When I get grounded and centered through my yoga practices I tap into my higher self where I know I don’t have to force expansion or chase leads; they’ll come through relationship and resonance.

That reminder felt like a deep exhale. When I act from desperation (ego), nothing flows. But when I share what I love (higher self)—whether that’s guiding people through a playful Chaturanga workshop or offering a Yoga Nidra practice—I’m serving from wholeness. And that’s when connection happens.

​Bringing Oneness Into the Day

If you want to experiment with this, here are a few micro-practices that help me:

• Pause before acting. One breath, recall the koshas, remember the wholeness.
• Ask a guiding question. “Which action will make me feel more present an hour from now?”
• Tune in. Even five minutes of focused breathing can remind you: you are not just your roles, you are the field in which the roles play.

If this Resonates

This week, I’m following the creative urge to share two things:

1. A 90-minute Chaturanga workshop that blends physical alignment, mental/emotional reflection, and playful methodology—a taste of the depth we explore in yoga teacher training.
2. The Yoga Nidra practice that reminded me of oneness after a sleepless night. Stay tuned—I’ll be sharing it soon.

And if this resonates deeply with you, consider taking it further with my ​Yoga Teacher Training (YTT). Whether you want to teach yoga or simply deepen your practice, YTT is a journey into the koshas, the philosophy, and the lived tools that help you bring oneness into everyday life. We explore not just poses, but the mental, emotional, and spiritual layers that make yoga a practice for living—not just for the mat.

Because the truth is, wholeness isn’t found only in perfect silence or on a retreat. It’s right here in the mess of motherhood, entrepreneurship, and daily life.

Yoga is the practice that helps us remember.

Read more about the Five Koshas here.